“The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18
Little Suzie sat on the front stoop of her parents country home hugging her dog. Tears streamed down her face as she whispered her sorrows into his soft fur. Her dog was her only comfort in a world filled with pain. Her spirit was broken and her only hope was that one day she would grow up and leave home.
Children have desires and wants and needs and the one need that is the most important is the need to feel loved. Suzie felt no love other than the love her dog shared with her. As the years passed and the abuse continued her need for love was buried and replaced with anger, hatred, and the need for revenge. Oh sweet revenge, she thought. I’ll show them all! The anger and hatred soon became her survival.
She went on to high school and college and that need to feel loved was pushed down deep yet it remained a part of her soul. Being the only one in her family to go to college she excelled beyond any expectations; her own and her families. She had her own home, she loved her job, she traveled, and her life style made others envious. But something was missing.
Her anger was deep and showed its ugliness through veiled sarcasm and not caring what others thought. She lived as she pleased and didn’t give a flip whether people liked it or not. Her relationships were negatively affected but she wasn’t aware of why and didn’t give it much thought. She felt she had no need for God, for He had abandoned her many, many years ago, or she abandoned Him. Either way, she didn’t care.
Her life was going along fine except the memories and pain from the past kept cropping up. Nightmares, flashbacks of events that left her sweating in the middle of the night, and dreams she didn’t understand.
Her thoughts for revenge had changed over the years. Instead of wanting to hit, curse, and harm those who had harmed her she decided the best revenge was to overcome all the pain they had inflicted. She entered into therapy.
The Lord Jesus met her there.
He knew her brokenness and I’m sure He shed many tears when He saw her broken spirit. With love greater than she could imagine He took her under His wing and loved her through pain so deep, even she didn’t know it was there. He walked her through the issues left behind. The shame was lifted, the false beliefs were rectified, the guilt that said all was her fault was corrected.
Christ showed her areas in her life that needed adjustments, like her attitudes! Her language was cleaned up, her broken heart began to mend. The greatest healing He brought to her was instilling in her heart that she is very much loved. By Him! He was restoring all that the abuse had stolen.
It wasn’t easy and it didn’t happen over night but with Christ beside her, with Christ holding her up with His right hand, and with Christ picking her up and carrying her when she was too devastated to continue the journey, she finally made it!
No more night mares, no more flashbacks or terrifying dreams, no more heart filled with hatred and wanting to hurt those who hurt her. All was replaced with forgiveness and a peace seeped within her that was beyond her own understanding. She was finally free from the devastating issues that had plagued her for much of her life. And the most deep seeded need of all has been filled, she finally realizes and accepts, Suzie is loved!
God the Father through His Son, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit knows your pain and knows your brokenness. Allow Him to walk through the pain with you. Allow Him to restore what the abuse stole from you. Trust Him with your innermost healing and if need be, He’ll even carry you when you can’t seem to take another step forward.
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Look up these scriptures. What do they say to you, right now?
John 8:32, 36