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Flawless

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When singing this song in church this morning I immediately thought of us, the ones who have felt the hurt and pains from childhood abuse. In singing it I replaced “you” with “me.” Try it as you sing along. Praise be to God, He has made us flawless.

 

 

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A Fist Raised in Anger

11342215-a-man-angry-over-the-whole-world-is-screamingIn going through some of what the Lord has spoken to me through the years I ran across one writing from last year and it made me think about how we get so angry at God and tend to blame Him for those things that have hurt us or things that have gone wrong in decisions we have made.

For many years I blamed God for not stopping the abuse I suffered from my family and later for an abusive marriage and, just to be honest, for a lot of things. The abuse I suffered within my family was not my fault, I thought God was supposed to stop it. He’s all-powerful so how come He let it continue for years?

I didn’t need the Lord in choosing my first husband! I had decided the man was good-looking, I was twenty-seven years old and ready to settle down, and this guy was fun to be around. I learned very quickly after the “I do’s” that he was an alcoholic, a womanizer, and wife beater. That may not have been the man the Lord wanted me to marry so why didn’t He say, “Stop! Don’t marry him!” Maybe He kept quiet because my anger slammed that door in His face and the fist was raised and maybe He had and I ignored Him.

I am convinced that those that vehemently claim to be atheist’s have turned their back on God because of hurt, rejection, abuse, or something else that happened early on or at some time in their life that they felt God should not have allowed. The fist flies up and suddenly “there is no God!” They have rejected the all-powerful One and have deemed themselves god. They claim there is no God yet their god is Satan.

We can blame God for those things that are not our fault and blame God for the poor choices we make. Some have felt “led” to do something, thinking God is the One leading them only to learn later it was either our own soul or the enemy that was in the lead and yet we blame God. “If it wasn’t you, God, then why didn’t you stop me? You knew it was going to turn out like this.” or “You knew what they were going to do and yet you said…..”

We humans, some of us anyway, are quick to shake our fists at God instead of focusing on His will and trusting that even if we mess up He is there to bring us through. He knows what we are going to do, think, and say before we even do, think, or say anything! His love is so great, His grace so abundant that maybe, just maybe He lets us make the mistakes so we will eventually learn to turn to Him about all things. Some of us have to learn the hard way and I’m more than sure, being one of those, that the Lord is more than willing to let us have our own way. And in having our own way, not seeking or following God’s will we have allowed the enemy access.

So let me share His words that I found that caused all this deep thinking:

“The Almighty God which art in heaven sees all that is within heaven and earth and even beneath the earth. His Grace is poured out for all who will accept it yet there are those who refuse and will even blasphemy His name. Those who love Him have the assurance of an eternal home with Him and those who reject Him shall see the fires of hell for all of time and beyond.

God’s love goes beyond human understanding and it is a shame that although He gave His only begotten Son for the sins of all mankind they reject that shed blood. It is a shame that the enemy of God has such powerful influence in men. It is a shame that so many have turned fists to heaven and swear by their own gods. Their god is self. If they refuse the Son of God there is only one alternative and he has been on the prowl more so now than ever before because he knows his time is short.

Those who follow the Son of God must stand strong and bold. They must watch for the ploys of the enemy and not be sucker-bunched by those who follow the enemy. For if they do not follow God through His Son Jesus Christ they are following Satan. They may not realize their self-righteous attitudes are those coming from Satan but they are. I pray to My Father that all will see My light and that none should perish. I come to the Father with love for all even though they reject and defy Me.

My children, you must be strong. You must focus on Me day and night for the times are about to change and things are not as they have been. My strength I give you if you will follow in My footsteps and let Me lead you through the turmoil. Trust Me as you have never done before. Pray for the lost but do not compromise My truth for any. Many shall belittle. Many shall call you atrocious names and throw the fiery darts so as to turn you from Me. That is the fiery darts of the enemy. Put on your armor and stand firm!
I am the Almighty I Am. Go with my love, joy and peace for I am with you.”
Given by the Holy Spirit 8-7-15

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Angels by Grace

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1994 I was facilitating a new ministry the Lord put on my heart. “The Angel Group” was a support group for women who had been sexually abused as children. It was the only Christian based support group within several counties and we had women traveling several miles to attend. The need was, and still is great.

One morning the Lord woke me up out of a sound sleep and told me, “Get up! You’re going to publish a magazine.” I had no idea how to do that but as always the Lord is faithful to walk us through whatever He calls us to do. Standing at the kitchen table with Christ beside me we put together a small outreach publication for survivors of childhood sexual abuse. All submissions were by survivors. The publication started out with only 25 mailings and by the end of four and a half years it had crossed into several states and the hands of many, from hurting survivors to professionals, pastors and everyone in between. Any time we follow the calling of the Lord and do things His way we will be successful. Over the past several months, you my readers, have read several of those submissions.

Here is a letter to the Angel Ministry, now Elah Ministries, Inc., as an example of how reaching out can bring hope, healing, and deliverance to those who are hurting. I see our blogs, yours and mine, as an outreach ministry and regardless of whether you have comments at the end of your article or not, you are touching someone.

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April 1998

Dear Angels of Angels by Grace and Angel Group:

I am a fellow “Angel” if you should call it that. Though I must confess it’s been years since I’ve felt like one. I write to you to praise, mainly because I’ve lived in this town for over ten years and your Angels by Grace magazine is the first outreach of support I’ve encountered in that time without seeking it out.

I wanted to let you know, that both witness and compassionate brothers and sisters in this healing journey that yes, you are reaching out indeed. Your magazine managed to reach its way into a secured building and guarded cell block in Douglas County jail, where myself and a handful of women have been blessed with the assurance that there are still people who care.

The other reason I wanted to send praise is on a more personal note. And actually, maybe it’s not so much praise for your work as it is a deep gratitude. I have been here a month and await my court date next week, concerning charges resulting from an addiction that I have.

The addiction in turn, results from years of traveling over, under, and around issues from eight years of sexual abuse as a child. The psychological and mental aspects of healing are nothing new to me. I’ve been through more forms of counseling than I care to disclose.

What is new to me though, is recognizing that no amount of medicine or counseling will help heal these buried hurts if I neglect to make my relationship with Jesus Christ a “constant” in that journey. I have been a born again Christian for seven years now, but oddly enough, that revelation has just occurred to me.

Receiving your magazine today made that possible by awakening a desire in me. A desire to examine my heart and surrender it to the Lord. I have realized that literally, it is too exhausting for me to carry the burdens any longer. I am now ready and willing to let God take them for me.

An added bonus, if you can call it that, is that I have taken the first step in overcoming my addiction and getting my life back on track. There is, most assuredly, a long road ahead for me. And it seems deeply overwhelming at times. I had thought, “there’s so much to do to begin really healing, make amends, forgive others, forgive myself, that I don’t know where to start.”

I do know now. I’ll start on my knees. If that doesn’t work, then I’ll try flat on my face and stomach. I’m learning to pray again and it’s wonderful. I am scared out of my wits when I think about what lies ahead. What I’ll find that I’ve been hiding away. I fear that maybe it will be to much to handle, but in my heart I know that’s just that scared little girl talking, who didn’t know Jesus.

The best part of all of this is that I’m a grown woman now, who knows and believes in Him. Satan, with all his manipulative demons, has no power here! Not in my days now.

I wanted to say to each of you that the lesson of the week for me has been to learn to take the promises of God as just that, Promises. Promises from One who would never forsake or break them. In 1Peter 5:10,11 it says, “The God of all grace, Who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will Himself perfect, establish, strengthen and restore you. To Him be the power for ever and ever.” That’s a promise!

Thank you again for sending your love, even unbeknownst, to each of us here. You are in our prayers, and I ask that if you will, would you please remember to say a word for us? There is a magnitude of hurt and bitterness here the devil himself would back away from. I know that none of it can be cleansed without the power of God. Please pray for that power. Sending much love and thanks, and may God bless and keep you.  Alice.

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The Gift of Forgiveness

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I forgive you. Few words carry such an enormous impact upon both the speaker and the listener. It’s been my observation that forgiveness can break the chains that bind us to our past like few other things can. We all know we should forgive those who have wronged us, yet coming to a place of truly forgiving another can be fearful, difficult, or at times confusing.  Some find themselves in a place where they are unsure if they have forgiven or not. Still others ask, “Why should I forgive, I’m the one who was hurt?”

FORGIVENESS

SETS US FREE

FROM OUR OWN

PRISON CELL.

“What forgiveness is not”

Let me begin by sharing what forgiveness is not. Forgiveness is NOT justifying, excusing, understanding or explaining away someone’s behavior. It is NOT denying angry feelings, forgetting about it, pretending it didn’t happen. Forgiveness does NOT require the cooperation, request or knowledge of the other person and is NOT the same as reconciliation, nor does it require reconciliation, as in cases of abuse or violence, etc. Forgive and forget is a myth. You are not capable of self-induced amnesia. We need to forgive and be willing to forget.

“What is forgiveness?”

I think the best way to understand forgiveness is to ask the One who invented it. Scripture is filled with awesome revelation of God’s incredible “transaction” with mankind. He took the sins of the world and placed then on Christ. He took Christ’s righteousness and offered it to all who would receive. Such an incredible offer, total forgiveness as well as Christ’s very life and righteousness made available to us. We first had to realize our “need,” then we entered into (receiving, appropriated) the work God had already prepared for us.

“Releasing a Debt”

This is forgiveness, a transaction whereby the debt of one is released by the willful act of another. This release is not earned or bargained for. It’s a gift only to be received. This is precisely the definitions of the two words used in the original language of the Bible that are translated “forgive.” One means, to release a debt, the other means to give a gift of grace (an unearned gift). It’s important to note that God did His forgiveness work before we asked Him to. This teaches an important lesson on our forgiveness of others. Forgiveness only takes one, reconciliation takes two.

“Doesn’t sound fair”

If we are the one who was hurt, then why should we release the other person from a debt that they haven’t paid? This doesn’t sound fair to me. Besides the obvious fact that forgiveness is a scriptural command, I find consolation in the scripture that reminds me that God forgives for His own sake. (Isa. 43:25) We are then one’s who benefit from forgiving others. Forgiveness sets us free from our own prison cell. The sad fact is, I can’t undo the past. As much as I might wish it were different, debts (hurts by others) of the past are debts that can never be paid. In areas where I’ve been wronged or hurt I only have two options, carry that hurt with bitterness or release the hurt through forgiveness. If you’re thinking that it doesn’t seem fair, you’re right, it’s not. In reality the harm done to us by others was in fact paid for by Jesus on the cross, and the cross wasn’t fair. From God’s perspective the cross is where unpaid debt of others is finally accounted for. From our limited perspective, it’s hard to see how the account is settled.

“FORGIVE AND

FORGET IS A MYTH.

YOU ARE NOT

CAPABLE OF SELF-

INDUCED AMNESIA.”

 “…AS YOU HAVE

BEEN FORGIVEN” Scripture tells us to “forgive as God has forgiven us” (Eph.4:32) To briefly list how God has forgiven us would include the following. God had a focal point (the cross). He charged the debt, poured out His wrath and made a transaction. Based on that transaction, He forgave and accepted us. He then took the chance we would fail again.

“How do I forgive?”

Our forgiveness of others include all these points. Just as  God had a focal point, you may find helpful to picture this person sitting in an empty chair or prayerfully giving the hurt to Jesus, after all “He bore our griefs and sorrows.” It is not required  the other person be present. This is your decision, you’re deciding what you will do with your life.

* Acknowledge the hurt (ie. charge the debt) verbally.

* Acknowledge how it made you feel. This means you need to “feel what you feel.”

* Verbally release the person from the debt they owe you. (saying in effect, “I release the debt,” “You don’t owe me any more,” “You are forgiven.”)   Forgiveness is a transaction based on will, not a feeling.                                 

 * Accepting the person just as they are (Ro.15:7)  I am entrusting this person into God’s hands. God is now responsible for changing this person. This person is not freed from the consequences of his actions. God is in charge of letting people experience the consequences of their actions, we are not called to be enablers or rescuers.

“WE ONLY HAVE TWO

OPTIONS, CARRY THE

HURT IN BITTERNESS

OR RELEASE THE HURT

THROUGH FORGIVENESS.”

Most of us have people who have hurt us deeply and need to forgive. This list usually includes ourselves. Failure to forgive ourselves is holding onto what God has released. This is one of the enemy’s traps.

“Picket fences or Prison walls?”

When hurt, most people develop rigid protective walls. Unless we are willing to cautiously lower these walls of protection, reconciliation becomes impossible. They become prison walls rather than picket fences that serve to define healthy personal boundaries. There is always the risk of being hurt again. This will mean trusting God with the future.

“Residual feelings”

The fact that passing thoughts and lingering hurt feelings may still occur proves two things. The devil is alive and well, and we still retain the memory of the hurt even after forgiveness. As we focus on the reality of our transaction, emotions slowly follow. We literally change the significance of a hurtful memory when we change its meaning. No longer a victim, we are an overcomer.

“Decision or Process?”

Is forgiveness a decision or a process? It’s both. Allow me to illustrate, almost seventeen years ago Carol and I walked into a church as single people. We said a few words, and the pastor (my father) said a few words. When we walked out we were married people. It became true because we made it true. It started with a decision, yet the implications of that wonderful decision are discovered in a lifelong process. This principle applies to forgiveness. It too begins with a decision, but it’s clearly a process of walking out our decision on a daily basis. Keeping our accounts at zero is an ongoing process.

“Reconciliation?”

 Many people ask questions like, “What if the other person isn’t sorry for what they did, or what if he never asks to be forgiven?” These questions are more about the issue of reconciliation than forgiveness. Remember, forgiveness takes one, reconciliation takes two working toward a common goal. Scripture implies that we will not be able to reconcile with everyone. (Rom. 12:18), however reconciliations is the natural goal in mind in most cases. We are responsible for our own willingness to reconcile, but not for others. I like to use the illustration that reconciliation is like two people on opposite sides of a large river and you only have enough lumber to build the bridge half-way across. The point being, if the other person doesn’t want their half of the bridge, you won’t get across. True reconciliation won’t take place. At best what you will have is an “arrangement” not a relationship with the other person. Arrangements are where two Peoples interactions with each other are governed by unspoken but clearly understood terms of rules.

“Forgiveness takes

one, reconciliation

takes two… what

you have is an

“arrangement”

not a relationship…”

“You are a forgiven person”

While forgiveness seems awkward at first, we soon discover that it is completely consistent with the new nature (2Pet.1:4) we received at salvation. In other words, we discover the truth that all believers are in fact forgiving people by virtue of God’s process of changing our hearts. Any time our daily walk becomes consistent with our new nature (Christ in us) we are on the path to freedom. Let’s walk in His freedom.

Written by James Eubanks – Grace Ministries, Inc. – Angels by Grace Publication-May 1998

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Testimony – Its Still Happening Today!

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I am a thirty one year old in recovery from satanic ritual abuse as well as sexual abuse. I was born into an occult that involved my mother, father, and grandfather on my mother’s side. My grandfather was the head of the whole thing.

From the time I was born I was sexually abused and used as a “pure” sacrifice for all kinds of satanic rituals. You see in an occult world sex is praise and worship to Satan, much like our singing praise and worship to God. In the occult world when you have a child who has not been touched, much can be gained by those in charge who have the power to give “legal rights” over to the enemy, at the expense of the child of course. That’s what happened to me.

To my mother and father I was considered an experiment. My mother didn’t want to have children, but she had me for the purposes of the occult.  My grandfather died when I was four years old and that seemed to unleash all the resentment and bitterness within my mother and she turned those emotions on me, full force.

In my mothers mind she was going to put the experimental child, me, in its place. So she took me before the occult council and had them degrade me. She considered that putting me in my place on the spiritual level. “Spiritual” being of Satan.  After the meeting with the council she took me to a room and ….

…………………..I’m leaving blank due to being graphic…………………..

When I awoke and it was discovered that I was still breathing my mother assigned me a new role to take on in life. “You are not my daughter. You are my slave!” she told me firmly. “You are to do as you are told, you are not to speak, you have no opinion, and most of all you have no choices!” she continued to shout.

I have since looked up the definition of “Slave” and another word comes up, “Servitude.” Which means having no liberty to do as one pleases. It’s a lack of freedom to determine one’s course of action or way of life. To sum it up, that was me!

The funny thing is that I never took to her teachings. When my mother went from church to church, making trouble and causing chaos, I was hanging onto every word my Sunday School teacher was saying about Jesus. I accepted Jesus into my heart and He has been living there for a very long time.

I have now been in what I call hard core counseling. The Lord has been revealing to me the “legal rights” to my soul that was given to Satan by my grandfather and parents. What is awesome is that Christ has been taking back those rights from Satan. Satan no longer retains any rights over my life.

Christ has also taken me back to that room where……….(graphic)

You see, when I left that room as a slave child I left my true self behind. Christ has since placed me back in there, telling me I was to come out of that slave mentality. But in order to get out of that horrible room I had to get past the people that put me there.

I was scared to death to even face those people much less walk near them. But I decided to trust in the Lord and with His help I confronted and faced the evil. This time I put them in their place! And with that I walked out of that room holding Jesus hand.

Because of Jesus walking through those memories with me I received much release. Inner freedom just washed through me. I am no longer living with the slave mentality or playing that role. Best of all I no longer feel like a slave inside. I am so very free and I now have a sense of security within myself that no one else can give but God.

I have forgiven my mother and father but it is not necessary for me to have any kind of relationship with them. Why? Because they continue to practice devil worship to this day. I have wonderful friends, a church family, and besides, I have the most wonderful Father. My heavenly Father. And maybe some day He will even bless me with a family of my own.

It is a miracle to me that I have survived my upbringing and that I never took any interest in my parents activities or Satan worship. I worship God through His Son Jesus Christ.

Let me say that the road to recovery has been anything but smooth. With Jesus holding my hand, my willingness to face, head on, the bumps and obstacles of healing, has enabled me to overcome much. Jesus truly healed so many wounded emotions as well as my broken heart. If it weren’t for Him I would not be a survivor. It is because of His mercy, His grace, His strength, and most of all, His Name has protected me and He’s guided me through it all. God bless.

Debbie M. – Elah Publication -June 2003

Note: Debbie has since graduated college, has a Master’s degree in education and is married and has 2 children.

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A Place of Peace

During my healing process the burdens of the past would build up and the pain from the deep-seeded wounding would escalate at times. I would turn to the Lord and He gave me a place that I could rest.

It was a visual place in my mind that I would be taken to in my spirit. That safe place was under a large Oak tree. I would sit in the shade of its branches. A bubbling creek was at my feet. Behind me was the quiet of a beautiful pasture with wild flowers interspersed among the green grass. The sun shining down.

I would lean against the rough bark of the tree trunk and gaze out at the rippling water. It flowed gently down stream bubbling over a rock. The quiet whisper of the waters flow was calming. In my special place Jesus would walk up and sit down beside me. He never spoke but would lean back against the tree trunk and I would imagine that like me He was just contemplating the sounds of natures.

It was the most calming place for me and when the rigors of life come upon me to this day I always have access to my secret, safe place. I ask the Lord to take me there and suddenly a peace beyond all understanding flows through me as My Lord and I lean against the rough bark of an old Oak tree and listen to the whisper of a bubbling brook.

God has a secret safe place for you when the healing journey tries to tear you down. Ask Him to take you there and let the peace of God fill you.

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Escape…

You need to escape?
Need to get away,
from hassles today?
An escape you seek,
from problems deep?
Want a vacation?
To a secret location?
Wanting the oceans blue…
beautiful mountains too?
Wanting a tropical breeze…
Or a northern freeze?
Wherever you want to go…
something you need to know.
You can escape…
and it’s no debate.
You can escape today…
to a place not far away.
A place concealed,
but I will now reveal.
*********************
It’s called the “Secret Place”…
it’s very deep inside.
Where we can each go…
go and hide.
Peace and safety,
we find in that place.
Consumed by God’s Love,
and His amazing Grace.
Where and how, you ask…
do you get deep inside?
Just call on God…
Let Him be your Guide.
For there is a place…
a Secret Place of rest.
In God’s Presence,
you will sure be blessed.

Poem by: SecretAngel

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