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A Pen Tip – I Am

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He who is the Almighty One

wonders about those

whose hearts are filled

with those things other than love. 

He who loves all of His children

sheds tears when He hears,

“There is no God.”

One must have the veil of despair lifted

to see His mighty works.

Breathe in the air, smell a rose,

look at your spouse and tell others,

“Oh but there is a God.

For who in human form

could create the very existence

of all that surrounds us?” 

Take a breath, wipe a tear,

for He who loves you mightily

made all that you feel.

Even those deep hurts,

for pain is growth.

Cry, My little ones

and rejoice

for all you are,

I Am. 

And all I am,

you are. 

The Holy Spirit – June 1997

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Is God Faithful?

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We can trust God for our healing.

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“And the bow shall be in the cloud; and I will look upon it, that I may remember that everlasting covenant between God and every living creature of all flesh that is upon the earth.” Gen. 9:16

“Faithful is He that calls you, who also will do it.” 1 Thes. 5:24

“And behold, I am with you, and will keep you in all places wherever you go, and will bring you again into this land; for I will not leave you, until I have done that which I have spoken to you of.” Gen. 28:15

“Thy Mercy, O Lord, is in the heavens; and thy faithfulness reaches unto the clouds.” Ps. 36:5

“I will sing of the mercies of the Lord for ever; with my mouth will I make known thy faithfulness to all generations.” Ps. 89:1

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His Glory, Not Mine! – Testimony

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In 1997 I was leading a support group for women who had been sexually abused as children and also publishing the Angels by Grace Magazine. I wrote this article for that magazine for the April 1997 issue.

The healing the Lord has accomplished since this writing is staggering! It is amazing how the Lord will use our pain. There is hope for healing! Trust Him. He will bring you through. 

When I read the testimonies that are given from women and men that have endured the hurt, betrayal, and loss as children, I cry. I feel that pain so very deep inside and wonder how any of us have survived such atrocities. I thank God for the healing that He has done, and is doing  within me and so many others.

There are a couple of testimonies that have been offered for Angels by Grace that have mentioned my name. I feel so humbled that the Lord has used me to offer up His hope before others. If I had been asked about the love of God just a few short years ago I would have either snarled out some caustic answer or turned and walked away. Not knowing that Christ was working within my life I would have clenched my teeth in absolute anger at the very thought that God loved me! How dare anyone tell me what I thought were lies! God could not have loved me. He could not have died for my salvation. For you see I thought it was God who not only told my Dad to abuse, but sat beside me and laughed while it was happening! How very wrong I was. I have asked Christ for His forgiveness so many times for my ignorance of who He is and He has forgiven me every time I cry out to forgive me again.

Therapy brought me through the times when suicide was thought to be my only alternative to stop the torment of memories and the sense that nothing could stop the pain of those memories. Much to my surprise I have learned that it was not God who was sitting beside me laughing back then, but the devil himself! I have learned that God was crying the same tormented tears of hurt and pain, betrayal and loss of innocence that I cried about then, and sometimes cry about now.

These past few years Christ has shown me that He is the One who sits in the Angel Group Support Group and says the words of encouragement to those hurting souls. I know that it is Christ that these women see who offers hope and healing, who’s understanding is given because if it were really me, the human called Sue, I would probably be asking as many questions as the others in the group.

I don’t always have the answers to difficult questions, like those that we struggle with on occasion about why did He allow it to happen? Why didn’t He stop it? I, like so many others, do not have the answers. I have to believe what Christ tells us in the Bible, that He is love, that He does not sit and laugh at our pain, that He is faithful to complete the good work He started in us. And like so many others, I still hurt, I still cry, and I still run to Christ like a child running to daddy. ( A daddy that did not hurt me.)

Reading the testimonies of these healing people has humbled me before the Lord. I am amazed constantly that He would not only take my pain and use it to help others, but that He has chosen me to work through. I’m the one who could not mouth His name because of anger directed at Him. Yet, when I sit within a room praising Him, acting like I’ve got it all together, these women thank me for what they see before them, the healing that they see that has been done within me.

Please know that I am grateful to the Lord who has done the work. I am grateful that people look at me and find encouragement. But what you are seeing is Christ within me. You are seeing Christ at work through someone who continues to sin. And I thank Him every day that He is the One who heals, restores, and is the life within me.  He is the One who shows us that abuse is wrong, that we need others to encourage, that groups are a must for those of us who need a shoulder to cry on, someone who can share our deep pain and laugh with us when we jump for joy over some accomplishment or area of healing that we have found victory over.

He is the Power that lights the way and we are the lamp stands that He will use. Healing cannot be done alone. We need Christ, we need others to encourage. Even if you are still within the walls of pain you also can help others. A kind smile, a simple pat on the shoulder goes a very long way when someone feels cold inside.

Let Christ use you as His lamp stand. For it is His light that brings us through those dark and scary places. It is He that sits amongst us and tells us, “Healing is a process. Don’t give up. Hang in there. Been there-done that.” Christ is faithful to bring you through the pain. Trust Him for He is the One who is faithful and true. He’ll prove it was not He who hurt you. That it is His will for you to be all that He created you to be; loving, happy, and whole.

Now I cry tears of gratitude and love for the healing that He has done for me and for the healing that I know He will do for you.

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“Tell Your Mother About the Orgasm…”

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This is a topic we usually do not discuss in an open forum but it is a very important one for survivors to know. I apologize for the strong language of the author. She’s a survivor, too.

Know any Gossips?

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“The words of a gossip are like choice morsels; they go down to a man’s inmost parts.” Prov.18:8

“A gossip betrays a confidence; so avoid a man who talks too much.” Prov. 20:19

“A gossip betrays a confidence; but a trustworthy man keeps a secret.” Prov. 11:13

“A perverse man stirs up dissention, and a gossip separates close friends.” Prov. 16:28

“Your tongue plots destruction; it is like a sharpened razor, you who practice deceit.” Ps. 52:2

“Keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking lies.” Ps. 34:13

“Without wood a fire goes out; without gossip a quarrel dies down. As charcoal to embers and as wood to fire, so is a quarrelsome man for kindling strife.” Prov. 26:20-21 

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When God Speaks, Listen.

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Written by Charlie – Angels by Grace Pub. – March 1997

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When I was young I sought God. I asked God,

 “Why do you not speak to me? Other’s

say you speak to them, and they are no

better than I!

Sure I know right from wrong,

yet sometimes I do the wrong. But

I don’t hurt anyone.

My friends don’t like me! But then,

I don’t need them anyway. My family just

wants me to do what they say. But who

are they to tell me what to do!”

Then a still small voice inside of me said,

“I’ve spoken to you many times. Yet

many times you refused to listen.

I’ve sent angels to protect you,

in times when you were alone and

afraid.

I also sent you friends that you

turned away! They didn’t ‘fit in.’

I’ve had your mother and all your

family tell you the right things

to do.

How can you hear Me when you will

not hear what those who love you

have to say?

The truth is, if you would listen,

you would hear My voice in so

many ways.”

Then God spoke once more. And I listened when He said,

“Be still and know that I am God.”

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What Happens Behind the Closed Doors of the Counseling Office?

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Written by Dr. Cliff Garrison – Anchor of Hope Counseling Ministries. -Angels by Grace Pub. May 1997

The scene usually includes two people – sometimes three or four. One party is generally feeling pretty overwhelmed having tried all the answers that used to work in the past but now don’t seem to.  Christ-centered counselor’s are really not that much different. They have hurt in many of the same ways as most people they see. And through their own weaknesses they have experienced the reality of God’s love, strength, and healing power. The Lord during these difficult times has revealed some basic principles that the counselor can then use to help others in their times of testing.

First and foremost the counselor is there to hear accurately and sensitively the story which the hurting one is trying to tell. He wants to listen in such a way that can put himself in the other’s shoes so that the other knows he has been understood, accepted, and received. The one hurting needs to know he is loved, and a precious treasure to the Lord. He is a child of God – not better than or less than any other child of God.

Besides being accepted and understood, the counselee needs to feel the respect for the journey that the Lord has him on in this point in life. He needs to realize that this time of difficulty is no accident. God’s hand is on him to bring new life from the darkness. The Lord even says He gives treasures of darkness. (Isaiah 45) Our suffering is the setting the Lord uses to draw us closer to himself. As long as we have no needs – we also have no need for a Savior. God’s love will allow us to see our need.

Christian counselors can help the counselee see their need from God’s perspective. Counselee’s are way ahead of many of us because they see themselves in need. Therefore they are open to God’s help. Now the counselor, with God’s help can assist the counselee to see regular patterns that seem to ongoingly emerge and create problems in the counselee’s life. So working together in a shared partnership God provides the atmosphere for healing and transformation to take place. Life’s lies, coming from false messages given many times during childhood, are brought to the light. And as the truth begins to emerge and take hold there is an experience of God’s love and goodness even in the midst of pain.

Through prayer and the willingness to be open and transparent God will allow the root of the problem to be revealed. Then we can find the blocks, that is strongholds that keep us from doing the things we want to do or keep us from doing those things we don’t want to do. When the root of the blocks is revealed it can be severed by forgiveness and repentance. And so we discover we are like Paul, the Apostle, who had the same experience. (Romans 7)

There was an answer for Paul and there is an answer for you. Don’t give up hope. God can redeem any mistake and bring hope into the most hopeless of circumstances.

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Once upon a Time… No Fairy Tale Here! – Testimony

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Once upon a time a little girl was born into a family that wasn’t rich and wasn’t exactly poor. I suppose they would fall into the “middle class” category of society. They lived in the country and those who knew them thought all was well. But it wasn’t. It was a family filled with deep dysfunction.

As the little girl grew, her hurt and pain grew with her. She was being abused; physically, emotionally, sexually, and psychologically from a very early age. She had no hope, no dreams, and saw no way out. She put on a brave front but inside she was empty, lonely, and angry. Very angry!

One day her neighbor asked her to church so the little girl went so as to escape the misery at home. The preacher spoke of how Jesus saves us. Hope filled the little girls heart and she ran forward and asked Jesus to save her. When she got home she waited and watched. Any sound and she’d run to the window to see if Jesus had shown up to save her from the torture she lived in. She expected the knock on the door any day.

But no knock came. As the days passed she felt hurt and confused, then angry, then bitterness set in. As a young teen her hell continued at home with added pain piling up. She was gang raped then learned she was pregnant. The child was snatched from her womb and placed in the arms of a stranger without her ever seeing her child. Her bitterness grew and any who spoke of God would meet with her wrath.

Her rage and angry roots grew so deep no one could get through. The door was slammed shut to anything pertaining to a loving God. Her pain continued to dig deeper and deeper. She attempted suicide a couple of times but to no avail. God wouldn’t even let her die!

She married in her late twenties and thought all would be okay now. Only it wasn’t.

Her new husband beat her. He stayed out all night and brought women to their bed when she was out of town. He drank and lived in the bars. He got mixed up with the wrong crowd and finally was looking down the wrong end of a gun being held by a killer. Her pain deepened but life must go on.

Where was God? She didn’t ask. She figured He could care less. As far as she was concerned she didn’t exist in God’s eyes. If He doesn’t care, why should she?

Once again single she figured single life was okay. She dated, she worked, she had a good time, too. The mask she wore covered her wounded heart.

Four years later she met another man. A man totally opposite of her abusive husband. A Christian man. He didn’t belittle her. He didn’t hit her or call her ugly names. He didn’t drink or chase women. He supported her and loved her. He didn’t preach to her, somehow knew better. He didn’t talk about love. He showed her what love is and gradually she was able to toy with the idea that maybe God brought this loving man into her life. She trusted her husband and loved him more than anything she’d ever known.

But bad things happen.

She retired. He retired. They traveled and enjoyed doing the things they had dreamed about doing some day. But all those dreams were never met. He got sick. Five years of fighting his illness and living in hospitals brought her new pain. At least now she was talking to God. Lashing out would be more like it. “If You are real You are going to have to prove it to me!” she screamed silently.

He did.

Soon after she buried her husband she found herself standing in front of a pastor asking Jesus to be her Savior. She wasn’t sure how she got there, or really why she was there, but after that things began  changing in her life. Changing drastically! Jesus was now her Counselor and the wounds of the past were being confronted and healed. Her life was being transformed a step at a time.

Her phone rang one morning. She slowly walked toward the kitchen to answer it. While reaching for the phone the Lord spoke softly, “I’m giving back to you what was taken away.” She heard her long-lost child’s voice for the first time in thirty-six years.

God wasn’t through proving He’s real.

He used her to help others with similar pain from their pasts. He taught her to trust Him. He took her to places she had never been, not just physical locations, but emotional and spiritual places. He’s given her dreams and visions and warnings and encouragement to give to others. He’s used this once hurt and angry little girl in ways that continues to amaze her even today.

Long ago she gave up on Him – but He never gave up on her!

He uses her today to tell those that do not believe or accept Him, that He is real. He wants them to know He cares. He wants them to know they’ll never be alone if they will only accept Him. He wants them to know that He will transform their lives if they’ll just place their trust in Him.

I know, because I was that little girl.

God proved He is real and continues to prove it to me every day. He is my life, my healing, my hope, my Redeemer. He is my all. I pray He will become yours, and that if you haven’t already, you will ask the Lord to forgive you of your sins and come into your heart and transform your life.

Sue

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“If you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.” Roman 10:9  

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The Little Ones

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Written by Renee – Angels by Grace Pub. – May 1997

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Born into an unfamiliar world

starting out as a delicate pearl

These are the little ones.

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Tender sprouts of care

knowing love is fondly there,

these are the little ones.

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Suddenly there’s change

something is happening that’s strange

to these, the little ones.

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Such sheer terror

to have been done in error

to these the little ones.

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Living in constant fear

not knowing what is near

 to harm these, the little ones.

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Tender sprouts of care

are no longer there

for these, the little ones.

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They grow up to put

the past behind

but only grow up to find

they are still, the little ones.

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But Jesus is there

to keep them in His care

these, the little ones.

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He won’t allow any harm

to hurt any more His charm

these, His little ones.

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Abuse and Our View of God

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ANNA WALDHERR A Voice Reclaimed, Surviving Child Abuse

God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him” (1 John 4: 16).

The image we have of God is greatly influenced by the childhood experience with our own fathers, and the men who – willingly or not – filled that role in our lives. We view God as possessing all their faults while, at the same time, blaming Him for those faults.

Abuse necessarily darkens the lens through which we see God.

If our fathers were absent, chances are we will see God as absent and unconcerned for our welfare. If the men with whom we had relationships as children were hard and critical of us, we are likely to see God as harsh and judgmental.

If our fathers were cruel and sadistic, or molested us under the guise of “love”, we may see God as cruel or deceptive, and…

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