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I Never Thought of Myself as a Farmer.

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Growing up in the country I always loved to play in the dirt. My sister always laughed and said, “You can plant a dead stick and it would grow.” As an adult, I still love to play in the dirt and even have a T-shirt that says so.

There are times though that I get frustrated because I don’t always see the results of my labors. The seed takes too long to sprout or for some reason it just dies in the dirt. Did I do something wrong? Did I not water it enough or did I water it too much drowning what was suppose to produce?

The seed is an interesting little thing. The Lord says that if we have the faith of a mustard seed we can move mountains. (Matt. 17:20) A mustard seed? Wow, that’s the smallest of small seeds! He also said that the various types…

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What’s REALLY going on in America?

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A MUST READ FOR EVERY AMERICAN!

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Here are 2 books I HIGHLY recommend for they tell the truth, using scripture to back up all they say. If you never read anything else I suggest reading, praying, and looking to the Lord for how we can repent.

Both are available at: http://www.amazon.com

51eYqy+cwPL._AA160_ 9-11 was a travesty but you’ll be shocked at how much more there is to it. A must read by every Christian and non-believer.

61sBJhXmcSL._AA160_They say, “what goes around, comes around.” What America is facing is self inflicted suicide! A must read.

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Bible Emergency Numbers!!

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Bible Emergency Numbers!!

✝✡Bible Emergency Numbers✡✝

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“My presence shall go with thee, and I will give thee rest

When in sorrow, call John 14
When men fail you, call Psalms 27
When you have sinned, call: Psalms 51
When you worry, call: Matthew 6:19-34
In danger, call: Psalms 91
When God seems far away, call: Psalms 139
When your faith needs stirring, call: Hebrews 11
When you are lonely and fearful, call: Psalms 23
When you grow bitter and critical, call: 1 Corinthians 13
You feel down and out, call: Romans 8:31-39
You want peace and rest, call: Matthew 11:25-30
When the world seems bigger than God, call: Psalms 90
When you want Christian assurance, call: Romans 8:1-30
When you leave home for labor or travel, call: Psalms 121
When your prayers grow narrow or selfish, call: Psalms 67
When you want courage for a task, call: Joshua 1
When you think of investments / returns, call: Mark 10
How to get along with fellowmen, call: Romans 12
For great invention / opportunity, call: Isaiah 55
For Paul’s secret to happiness, call: Colossians 3:12-17
For idea of Christianity, call: 11 Corinthians 5:15-19
Depressed, call: Psalms 27
To be fruitful, call: John 15
If your pocketbook is empty, call: Psalms 37
Losing confidence in people, call: 1 Corinthians 13
If people seem unkind, call: John 15
If discouraged about your work, call: Psalms 126
If you find the world growing small and you great, call: Psalms 19.

Yeshua Jesus Christ said: “Yeshua-Jesus saith unto him, I am the WAY, the TRUTH, and the LIFE: no man cometh unto the Father, but by Me”. ( Yeshua-Jesus Christ )!! Thus: Yeshua-Jesus Christ is the only WAY to enter into HEAVEN!!

✝✡John 14:6 KJV✡✝

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✝✡Hallelujah & Shalom!! Kristi Anne✡✝

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Forgiveness and Thankfulness~~ Impossible in Abuse??

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It is difficult to forgive someone who has horribly abused us but with the strength and grace of our Almighty Father we can.

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This is for the many who have been abused and struggle with forgiving those who have hurt them.  Forgiveness is not easy… and it does not happen overnight. It comes in layers over time as healing occurs.  It is a necessary part of healing and sets us free from the hurts of our past, helping us to walk freely into our futures. However, sometimes it takes divine intervention to help us to get to this point. Then we can thank the Lord for getting us through our struggles and using it and us to help others as we answer His call.

Forgiveness and thankfulness…
seem impossible when we’re abused.
How can we forgive and be thankful…
as we are harassed and misused?
How can we let go of the anger…
and the pain that builds up inside…
when we search for love and kindness…
or even a peaceful place to…

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A Precious Gift – Testimony

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Written by Mari Levitt-Helms – Angels by Grace Pub. July 2003

Growing up I often heard how selfish I was, most often when I was depressed. To an extent I will agree with depression being a little self-centered. How could it not be when you are caught in your own black hole of despair and hopelessness?

Early in my life I started going to counseling and at 32 I’m still going. Just last week I was caught in a black hole of hopelessness about the amount of time that I’ve spent in counseling – more than half my life. Then it was brought to my attention that my journey in recovery is a gift I give my husband, my daughter, and myself.

In all honesty my progress in therapy prior to Christian counseling was mediocre at best. When I accepted Christ and invited Him into my heart, life and recovery-I could see dramatic changes.

After many years of longing to be a mother, God has blessed me with a wonderful daughter. I never dreamed how amazing or how difficult it would be. Just days after she was born I learned some of the difficulties I would face as a Mom and a survivor.

My daughter continually triggers me ( through no fault of her own). One of the greatest things I wish to accomplish as a mother is not ever making her feel responsible for my feelings. Often I find myself looking at her and wondering what it was like for me at her age and mourning for the loss of my childhood. I wonder how my mother felt knowing what was happening to me and not stopping it. It is incomprehensible for me to think about not protecting my precious, innocent daughter.

Sometimes I feel totally incompetent to be responsible for another human being and it is so easy to get caught up in all the triggers and fears, but I have given myself a gift – to seek Christian counsel. Not only through prayer, but with someone I know loves Christ as much as I do and helps ground me in my life and “mothering.” She helps keep me balanced in what God truly wants and in my distorted ideas of what I think He wants. She also helps when I have a tendency to overcompensate for something I lacked.

God has given me so many beautiful gifts, most significantly the gift of His Son for my salvation. This is a gift I would not have appreciated years ago, because I didn’t even appreciate being alive. Through counseling I have come to appreciate, love and even enjoy life. His love for me as my heavenly Father has more than made up for what I lacked. He has given me insight and wisdom to know when I seek the help of other Christians and not let the old tapes play in my head about how selfish I’m being. He has blessed me with many wonderful people who guide and love me through my struggles rather than judge or condemn me. It’s a precious gift He has given me, a precious gift I give myself and hopefully a precious gift I give to my daughter.

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Help is Available – A Testimony

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Written by Ann – Angels by Grace Pub. Feb. 1998

In my work as a counselor I have had the opportunity to work with many young people and their parents. Unfortunately, in my role I have also witnessed many children living in abusive or impoverished homes.

Some children have had to be removed from their own families for various reasons, including sexual abuse, deprivation of basic needs, neglect, severe cigarette burns, and other forms of physical abuse.

In many cases, sadly, the abuse took place by a biological parent or relative. It is not uncommon for the child to remain a victim into adulthood because his/her primary care-givers do not support her not take measures to ensure that these occurrences do not continue.

Care-givers can also have their own prior mistreatment that they have not dealt with. Fear, lack of compassion, lack of appropriate parenting skills, can also be a factor. At times their own denial that a problem exists that hurts the child will cause them to be unable, or unwilling to stand by the child. The child’s problems will then be magnified because she feels emotionally, and /or, physically abandoned.

A female acquaintance recently shared with me her own story of healing the wounds from years of physical and sexual abuse from her father.

For years she has held these secrets inside. Just like many children have said, “Because I was afraid.” Afraid that she would be blamed. Afraid that no one would believe her. Afraid that her Mom would not love her anymore and her mother wouldn’t be able to support the family, emotionally or financially.

She also stated that she feared what would happen to her family. Where would they live? Afraid that her father would beat her, afraid of the impact on the entire family.

She was afraid that her father would go back to jail, he had previously served a prison sentence for physically assaulting and attempting rape on a woman. She also stated that she felt guilty for the time her father did spend time in jail. He couldn’t hurt then.

She felt guilty for feeling grateful for her father’s jail time because his jail time made the rest of the family feel sad. Could she have come forward with her own truth and cause him to return to jail? She felt such enormous shame and guilt.

As she works with youngsters now, she can see where her thinking had been illogical. I reminded her that she was seeing through the eyes of a child. The child experience and lack of resources.

She explained that she wanted to go public with her story but asked me instead, to tell about her experiences. It is her desire to protect the privacy of each family member. She feels it would cause them suffering.

My acquaintance wants you, the readers, to understand the suffering and long lasting impact on her life that the scars carry. As she described to me the current trauma, a growing cancer inside her body, she gained strength and courage from being able to finally, step out of her isolating silence.

I also explained to her that she is one of the “lucky ones.” Through her faith in God, her strength, and personal resilience, she made it. She has made her life’s work helping children to have healthy self-esteem. She helps them to develop their own inner resources to become survivors.

With tremendous support from several close friends, her church, her therapist, and God’s help, she is finally healing.

Our children of today need to be listened to, heard, and understood. They do not have to suffer alone and in silence. The painful memories can haunt them forever. Children should not have to carry such a heavy burden through life by themselves. Help IS available!

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Something to Think About.

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The Journey – A Testimony

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Written by Teresa H. –  Angels by Grace Pub. April 2003

I was sexually abused from the time I was three years old until I moved away from home at the age of sixteen. My father was an alcoholic and my mother abused prescription drugs.

I was unusual as a child, in that I did not keep the abuse a secret. I remember at age six, we all were at the dinner table. I told my mother what my father was doing to me while I would take my naps. I was severely punished by both for speaking “such lies.” It was at that point I learned that I was not safe.

My childhood was not a time of fairy tales, teddy bears, and play. Instead it was a constant battle for survival. My father was a very violent man. He often beat my mother and all six of us children. Several times I remember him holding a gun to our heads threatening to kill us all. It was a childhood of sheer terror.

As an adult I continued to live in the fear that had been embedded in my heart. I was no longer living in my parents home, but my childhood experiences were deep in my memories and had damaged my heart and soul.

Consequently, as an adult I was able to function in the world, but my mind and emotions were stuck in “the child.” My life continued through two abusive marriages, which ended in divorces, and the birth of my two children.

I was extremely depressed and felt no hope for the future. I often considered suicide. My “condition” prevented me from being there for my children. I felt absolutely no connection with God. It was as though God had abandoned me. After all, I was “damaged goods.”

I spent most of my adult life trying to figure out why God, if He was so loving and kind, would let bad things happen to innocent children. I finally concluded that I was not worthy of receiving God’s help and He obviously did not love me. I was one of His mistakes.

Even though I felt so permanently damaged, I felt so miserable, that I sought help through counseling. I knew logically that my children needed me. Therefore, I had to make some effort to “get better” for them. Needless to say, the counseling did nothing but stir up my anger. I felt I was nearing the end.

In the summer of 1997 I entered a crisis. My third husband decided to leave me. He was convinced that God was directing him to do so. Within days he left with all of his belongings and headed home to North Carolina. This was my absolute bottom. I found myself on my living room floor crying out to God.

The next day I remembered the name of a Christian counseling center in a church the children and I had visited that Easter. I called and scheduled an appointment that afternoon. I thought it would help me recover from my husband leaving, but God had another plan. His plan was to help me heal from the abuse that happened to me as a child. His timing was perfect.

I began Christian counseling on a weekly basis for the next year. Through prayer and going back into the memories, Jesus was able to show me where He was in each situation. Jesus lovingly walked me through each memory and then coaxed me out. The spiritual experience of Him actually carrying me out of each abusive situation healed my heart, spirit, and soul. He restored me to centeredness with Him.

The Lord is now using me and my healing to help other women in their recovery process. I can say now that I am grateful for my childhood and who it has made me today. God took a horrible life and transformed it into a glorious journey with Him.

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Easter is Over – Or is it?

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We have all heard that Jesus is love, that He died and arose, stands at the right hand of God, forgives us of our sins, and that through His death and resurrection that we will have His peace and joy everlasting and spend eternity with Him.

That is all true but those of us that have been wounded deeply can struggle with the peace and joy part. Be it a loss of a loved one, a painful divorce, or the loss of our childhood through childhood sexual and physical abuse. When we are going through those painful memories, when we are struggling with the healing process and facing the giants of abuse issues we question, “Where’s all this peace and joy!?” “I’m hurting now and I sure don’t feel any peace about it and I have no joy.”

We live in an evil world. Evil things happen every minute of every day. Our circumstances are not what gives us joy. The circumstances that have brought deep pain can rob us of all peace and joy – if we let it! That’s what the devil wants. He has come to rob us of peace and joy. He has come to steal our faith, and he has come to kill our relationship with Jesus Christ. When we are curled on our beds in the fetal position because depression has left us limp and crying where and how can we feel joy?

Our peace and joy comes from the Lord. Our peace comes in reaching out to Him and knowing He’s there because He said He would never leave us or forsake us. His Holy Spirit lives within us and you can’t get any closer than that! There are times when we just have to refocus! We have to take the time, even if its just a moment, to remind ourselves that Christ is with us. He knows our pain and He is our Healer. We can shut Him out and remain in the fetal position or we can seek Him and get out of that bed of pain.

Our joy is not the kind we feel when we happily dance around the room singing. Happy circumstances can bring that kind of joy. The joy of the Lord is knowing, without a doubt, and total confidence, that He is in control. It’s that deep heart knowledge that even though we are suffering and hurting now that it will not last forever. No more tears, no more sorrow, no more suffering is our future and although we are hurting now we will be set free! That does not mean we have to wait to be in heaven for freedom. We have it now! Yes, tears will flow. Yes, we suffer and go through the pain of overcoming but we have Christ’s promise that we can have His peace and joy while here on this earth.

Our joy and the peace that is beyond all understanding comes from the acceptance that Christ is our hope. He is the only hope we have of ever becoming more than we are now. The pain is temporary. The suffering is temporary. It may not feel like it but if we believe the Word of God then we can look forward to freedom, now and forever more.

Christ died, He arose. The day of His Resurrection is over but we have been resurrected with Him. Easter may be over but our eternity has already begun. Christ still lives and we can live in freedom with the peace and joy that comes by believing in the One who loves us.

If you have not asked Christ into your heart He will hear your simple prayer if prayed. “Jesus, I believe You died and arose for the forgiveness of my sins. Forgive me and come into my heart as my Lord and Savior. In Jesus Name. Amen”

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HE’S ALIVE!

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