Forgiveness is a Choice
Written by Jeri R. Angels by Grace Pub. – July 2003
Had it not been for a support group I was a member of about a year ago, I probably would not be writing this testimony.
I can remember the day that I went to make arrangements to have chemo. I was on my way home from making the appointment when I suddenly thought, “I will call my mother as soon as I get home” and then the most overwhelming feeling passed over me. I can’t describe it.
I said to myself, as I drove on, “After all the things that she had done to my sister and I, regardless of how she always handled our situation, that I would never be able to discuss anything with her again.”
My mother handled the sexual abuse of my sister and I with denial and cursing us. She called us both liars and I finally gave up trying to talk to her about anything.
Driving along the road leading home from the doctors office I felt real sadness, realizing I couldn’t even tell her that I now have cancer. I know that I would not have felt anything; good, bad, or indifferent about her had it not been for the teaching in the support group on forgiveness.
I will always be thankful to the leaders for showing me and others how important it is to forgive. I made a choice to finally forgive my mother after all these years the night of that teaching. With the love and support of the others in the group I forgave my mother and that forgiveness has lifted so much hurt from my heart.
NOTE: Jeri was in her late 70’s and was a very angry controlling woman when she was finally able to forgive. She called me the next morning yelling, “What did you do to me?!” Upon questioning her, her final reply was, “I’m not mad at anyone any more! What did you do to me!?” I smile remembering this beautiful woman.
Blessings to you.