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Little Girl

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I was a little girl 

at an innocent age,

Tormented by your sick 

and controlling rage.

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You took my spirit,

my childhood,

and nearly my life,

Treated me not as your daughter,

but as your wife.

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I needed attention,

but the kind you gave,

Turned me into

a prisoner

and made me a slave.

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To protect my family,

I kept quiet and lied,

While everyday

a part of me died.

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The little girl

went away,

she will never be found.

And this big girl

now stands on shaky ground.

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The demons are chasing,

they’re closing in fast,

I’m starting to wonder

how long it will last.

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Hurt and anger,

that’s all I feel.

Staying alive is a battle,

no longer a thrill.

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Will there ever be peace

that I call my own?

Will there ever be a place

that I can call home?

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I’m begging you now

as I begged you before,

Please go away,

Please hurt me no more.

Written by Cindy – Angels by Grace – June 1998

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UnGodly Soul Ties are Destructive

Breaking all ungodly soul ties is part of the healing process and must be done since through sexual abuse many ungodly soul ties are formed. I pray the Lord will help each of us as we wade through the emotional and spiritual ramifications and become more closely to what He created us to be.

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What is the soul? The soul is our mind, will, and emotions. The Devil’s play ground.

What is a soul tie? A soul tie is an emotional bond or connection that unites us with someone else. We can become bound to a person through our soul. This can be done through generational sins that have been passed down through the generations, through vows we have made, and when we are close to someone or something. It can be a best friend, a pastor, our spouse, our children, a grandparent, relative, a celebrity, an abuser, and especially with every person we’ve had sex with. Even inanimate objects such as cars, jewelry, a house, money, etc.

Ungodly Soul ties can be formed with anyone or anything on a daily basis if we are not vigilant.

God creates Godly soul ties. Duet. 10:20 states, “You shall fear the Lord your God; you shall…

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Unholy Vows is an Open Door

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An inner vow is a solemn promise we make to ourselves. Those vows lodge into our subconscious and although we may totally forget we made such a vow, it is there and will control parts of our attitudes, beliefs, and behaviors.

As children, and even as adults, we make vows that start with “I will never.”  Usually it stems from hurt or pain. “I’ll never get married again!” “I’ll never be like my Dad!” These inner vows stem from a spirit of rejection and open the door to the enemy.

As a child being abused I learned that by crying it created great satisfaction to my abuser. Upon my realizing that fact the devil stepped through that open door and whispered, “Show her, don’t cry!” I immediately vowed, “No-one will ever see me cry again!” That not only shut the door to my true emotions but caused me more physical pain because the beatings lasted longer in order to draw tears. For 45+ years no-one saw me cry! Not tears of joy, not tears of pain.

Hatred replaced forgiveness. “Forgive others so you’ll be forgiven” flew right out the window of my heart. “Come hell or high water I’ll get revenge! No-one will ever hurt me like that again!” Satan was well pleased with my vow. He instilled hatred instead of love. He accomplished his purpose to rob, steal, and destroy.

God has a purpose for all of us and unholy inner vows thwart, separate us from God’s purposes. We’re saying, “My will, not God’s.”

Our anger, unforgiveness, pride, issues of control and manipulation all stem from that spirit of rejection.

Many times we use anger to cover the hurt we are feeling. We stomp off making yet another vow. We try to control people and things by building walls. Walls that leave us in a prison of not knowing, feeling, or exhibiting love. We think we are protecting ourselves from being rejected but in reality we are shutting God and others out. “No-one will ever hurt me again!” “I’ll never show my true feelings.” “I’ll never trust _____ again!”

Inner vows is where “people pleasing” comes from. If we can be what someone wants us to be then they won’t reject us. If I can make everyone laugh, regardless of the turmoil I’m feeling, then they will love me. “Don’t rock the boat” and I won’t be rejected. “I’ll never say what I really think.” “I never count so make them happy.”

In order to hide the feelings of rejection we also try to manipulate others and circumstances. Instead of trusting God with the situation we usurp Him by “making things happen my way.” That’s pride! Pride feeds right into the vows we have made. “I don’t need God to tell me what to do.” Authority issues stem from the issues of rejection.

There are many vows we have made knowingly or unknowingly and in order to be set free from them and come closer to who God created us to be each and every vow must be renounced and repented of.

Ask the Lord to bring to mind the unholy inner vows you have made. Don’t be surprised if there are many. Take the time to write them down and begin renouncing them.

Here’s a sample prayer of renunciation:

Heavenly Father, I come to You in Jesus name, I repent and renounce the vow I made (describe what the vow entailed and any person you may have made the vow to).  I realize this was foolish and rash on my behalf, and I ask that you will forgive me and release me from the bondage that this vow has brought me under.

In the name of Jesus, and by the power of His blood, I now renounce, break and nullify the vow (name the vow and any person the vow was made to), and I confess that I am released from this vow and it’s bondage in Jesus name.

I now command any evil spirits which have taken advantage of this unholy vow to leave me now in Jesus name!

(Repeat this prayer if you have more than one unholy vow to break.)

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The Story of Jonah by a very expressive little girl.

I’ll bet you haven’t heard the story of Jonah and the whale told like this. She is precious!

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YOUR CONCEPT OF GOD

YOUR CONCEPT OF GOD

HEY DAD, WE SEE GOD THE FATHER BEING LIKE YOU! Father’s must realize the impact they have on their daughters in regards to how she will perceive God the Father.

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by Neil Anderson

February 16
Matthew 7:11
If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more shall your Father who is in heaven give what is good to those who ask Him!
Most people in spiritual conflict have a distorted concept of God. Mentally they may have embraced correct theology, but emotionally they feel something different. True concepts of God are filtered through a grid of negative experiences to produce false concepts of God. These false concepts must be replaced by truth in order for freedom to be realized.
A pastor’s wife who came to me for counseling told me about her rigidly moral home which was dominated by her demanding mother. The father was a wimp who knew better than to interrupt the mother’s tirades against their daughter.
“You really love Jesus, don’t you?” I asked the pastor’s wife.
“Oh, yes,”…

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The Best Sermons are Lived, Not Preached

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These are real life stories that teach us many things in life. They are based on true incidents both wonderful and inspirational.

1. Today, I interviewed my grandmother for part of a research paper I’m working for my Psychology class. When I asked her to define success in her own words, she said, “Success is when you look back at your life and the memories make you smile.”

2. Today, I asked my mentor – a very successful business man in his 70’s – what his top 3 tips are for success. He smiles and said, “Read something no one else is reading, think something no one else is thinking, and do something no one else is doing.”

3. Today, after a 72 hour shift at the fire station, a woman ran up to me at the grocery store and gave me a hug. When I tensed up, she realized…

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