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The Great Sculptor


As I counsel hurting believers week after week, pain is often the common denominator in their lives. Why does God allow pain and suffering in the life of the believer? In reading, “When God Weeps” by Joni Eareckson Tada, I found several reasons why we go through suffering. I would like to share some of her thoughts with you.

Hebrews 5:7-9 states, “…although He was a Son, He learned obedience from what he suffered and made perfect, He became the source of eternal salvation for all who obey Him.” This is good news for the suffering soul. The Son of God did not exempt Himself from affliction but lived through it and learned from it. Once the process is complete, He became the source of help for all who obey Him.  Should we suffer? “A student is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master.” (Matt. 10:24-25)

Suffering fashions us into a “holy and blameless” image of Christ. (Eph.1:4) much like a figure sculpted out of marble. An artist in Florence, Italy once asked the great Renaissance sculptor Michaelangelo what he saw when he approached a huge block of marble. “I see a beautiful form trapped inside.” he replied. “and it is simply my responsibility to take my mallet and chisel and chip away until the figure is set free.”

The beautiful form, the visible expression of “Christ in you, the hope of glory” is inside Christians like a possibility, a potential. The idea is there, and God uses affliction like the hammer and chisel, chipping and cutting to reveal His image in you. God chooses as His model His Son, Jesus Christ. “For those God foreknew He also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of His Son.” (Rom. 8:29)

God continues to chisel, chipping more away. “To keep me from becoming conceited…there was given me a thorn in the flesh.” (2Cor.12:7)  God works deeper, carefully fashioning every hidden crevice, even our temperament: “Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who…made Himself…nothing He humbled Himself and became obedient to death – even death on the cross!” (Phil. 2:5-8)

God uses suffering to purge sin from our lives, strengthen our commitment to Him, force us to depend on grace, bind us together with other believers, produce discernment, foster sensitivity, discipline our minds, spend our time wisely, stretch our hope, cause us to know Christ better, make us long for truth, lead us to repentance of sin, teach us to give thanks in times of sorrow, increase faith, and strengthen character. It’s a beautiful image!

And it’s an image like no other. When Christ is unveiled in me, it’s a unique sculpture. It’s what patience, self-control, endurance, gentleness, kindness, as well as a healthy hatred of sin, looks like on “Joni.” That’s different than the way sensitivity and self-control look on my husband or anyone else. My particular affliction is divinely hand-tailored expressly for me.

Yielding to the chisel is “learning obedience from what we suffer.” Our circumstances don’t change; we change. The “who” of who we are is transformed, like a form unfolding, into His likeness with ever-increasing glory. “And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into His likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.” (2Cor. 3:16-18)

I cannot afford to focus on the hammer and chisel. I cannot look around me and bemoan what God is chipping away. Turn your focus on Him, trusting that He will never cut or gouge too deeply. God is not a casual or capricious Sculptor. “For I know the plans I have for you, ‘ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jer. 29:11)

James Eubanks – Grace Ministries

Angels by Grace -June 1998


Blessings to you.

With God’s help


 “Do not be afraid; you will not be put to shame. Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated.

You will forget the shame of your youth …” Isaiah 54:4

Blessings to you.

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HE LIFTS US UP: Broken in a Million Little Pieces


When I woke up one morning,
there was a song playing in my head.
“When you are broken, in a million little pieces…”
are part of the lyrics that I read.
So I know that this message is for someone…
who feels they can’t go on.
But I am here to tell you…
that you are never alone.

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A Place of Peace

During my healing process the burdens of the past would build up and the pain from the deep-seeded wounding would escalate at times. I would turn to the Lord and He gave me a place that I could rest.

It was a visual place in my mind that I would be taken to in my spirit. That safe place was under a large Oak tree. I would sit in the shade of its branches. A bubbling creek was at my feet. Behind me was the quiet of a beautiful pasture with wild flowers interspersed among the green grass. The sun shining down.

I would lean against the rough bark of the tree trunk and gaze out at the rippling water. It flowed gently down stream bubbling over a rock. The quiet whisper of the waters flow was calming. In my special place Jesus would walk up and sit down beside me. He never spoke but would lean back against the tree trunk and I would imagine that like me He was just contemplating the sounds of natures.

It was the most calming place for me and when the rigors of life come upon me to this day I always have access to my secret, safe place. I ask the Lord to take me there and suddenly a peace beyond all understanding flows through me as My Lord and I lean against the rough bark of an old Oak tree and listen to the whisper of a bubbling brook.

God has a secret safe place for you when the healing journey tries to tear you down. Ask Him to take you there and let the peace of God fill you.



You need to escape?
Need to get away,
from hassles today?
An escape you seek,
from problems deep?
Want a vacation?
To a secret location?
Wanting the oceans blue…
beautiful mountains too?
Wanting a tropical breeze…
Or a northern freeze?
Wherever you want to go…
something you need to know.
You can escape…
and it’s no debate.
You can escape today…
to a place not far away.
A place concealed,
but I will now reveal.
It’s called the “Secret Place”…
it’s very deep inside.
Where we can each go…
go and hide.
Peace and safety,
we find in that place.
Consumed by God’s Love,
and His amazing Grace.
Where and how, you ask…
do you get deep inside?
Just call on God…
Let Him be your Guide.
For there is a place…
a Secret Place of rest.
In God’s Presence,
you will sure be blessed.

Poem by: SecretAngel


Blessings to you.

HE LIFTS US UP: God’s Love for Victims of Abuse (Psalm 147:3-6)

So many abuse survivor’s think God didn’t or doesn’t care. We’ll never have a better or more loving advocate than Jesus Christ to bring us through the healing process. Blessings to you as you read. Thank you Secret Angel for sharing.


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The roller coaster of healing – A Letter to Jesus


Dear Jesus:

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t know why I haven’t wanted to talk to you most of the time during these past few weeks. I don’t feel close, yet I know you’re with me. I don’t want to open your Word or even go to church. “Why?” keeps popping into my mind. Yet I don’t really care why.

I know I’m getting tired of feeling like this. I can’t work, I can’t do the hobbies I enjoy. I can’t serve you as I have in the past or as I should. It’s you that does these things through me, I know that, But I don’t even want to pray, Lord! If I don’t care why, then why am I writing this? If this experience is to show me I can’t do anything without you, I already know that. I want to scream, “So what’s going on?” but I don’t want the answer, either.

I’m messed up, Lord. I’m at a place I don’t remember even being before I became a Christian. Any yes, it’s very obvious that I’m operating out of the flesh. Part of me is screaming, “So what! I am human!” I feel like I’m mad at you and I don’t know why. This feels like the time you used my healing to show others the pain we feel from abuse. Remember that? I was really hurting and you allowed me to go through that in front of others. Boy, was I a real mess then! And I didn’t like that any more than I like this.

I don’t see what the lesson is here. Are you using this experience as a lesson to someone else? Me? I want to shout, “Where’s the lesson!?” But I’m not sure I want to hear the answer. Choices? Consequences? You’ve led me to those type verses the few times I’ve opened your Word this past few weeks. I did read them before I slammed the Bible closed.  Is that what all of this is about? Are you showing me I do have choices? That the “lost” feeling that seems to permeate me now, comes from those choices?

Lord, there’s anger, frustration, agitation. All sorts of negative feelings swirling around inside me. Why? Where does it come from? I care – I don’t. I want – I don’t want. I even feel, “So what?” It’s all inside of me.

I guess it’s up to me now, right? I can ask for your understanding. Ask you, “Why?” Part of me doesn’t want to know, doesn’t care. That doesn’t make sense, either.  I know this relationship is team work. You and me have to work together to accomplish whatever we endeavor. This part of the team doesn’t seem to care any more, yet I do.

Instead of me waiting on the Lord, I think, you Christ, are waiting on me. Waiting until I want your help, want you as an intricate part of my life again. Which, by the way, I never understood anyway. I never deserved you in the first place. So where’d you go? How come you left?

Lord, I know you haven’t left. I have. And I don’t know how to get back, or, if I want to. I gave you my life. You’re my Shepherd. Come find this lost lamb, ’cause I’m scared.

The answer was given in John 1:48-51.


Name withheld by request – Angels by Grace April 1998


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Blessings to you.

Where my hope lies

Blessings to you.

When Christ shows up in your healing


“The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18

Little Suzie sat on the front stoop of her parents country home hugging her dog. Tears streamed down her face as she whispered her sorrows into his soft fur. Her dog was her only comfort in a world filled with pain. Her spirit was broken and her only hope was that one day she would grow up and leave home.

Children have desires and wants and needs and the one need that is the most important is the need to feel loved. Suzie felt no love other than the love her dog shared with her. As the years passed and the abuse continued her need for love was buried and replaced with anger, hatred, and the need for revenge. Oh sweet revenge, she thought. I’ll show them all! The anger and hatred soon became her survival.

She went on to high school and college and that need to feel loved was pushed down deep yet it remained a part of her soul. Being the only one in her family to go to college she excelled beyond any expectations; her own and her families. She had her own home, she loved her job, she traveled, and her life style made others envious. But something was missing.

Her anger was deep and showed its ugliness through veiled sarcasm and not caring what others thought. She lived as she pleased and didn’t give a flip whether people liked it or not. Her relationships were negatively affected but she wasn’t aware of why and didn’t give it much thought. She felt she had no need for God, for He had abandoned her many, many years ago, or she abandoned Him. Either way, she didn’t care.

Her life was going along fine except the memories and pain from the past kept cropping up. Nightmares, flashbacks of events that left her sweating in the middle of the night, and dreams she didn’t understand.

Her thoughts for revenge had changed over the years. Instead of wanting to hit, curse, and harm those who had harmed her she decided the best revenge was to overcome all the pain they had inflicted. She entered into therapy.

The Lord Jesus met her there.

He knew her brokenness and I’m sure He shed many tears when He saw her broken spirit. With love greater than she could imagine He took her under His wing and loved her through pain so deep, even she didn’t know it was there. He walked her through the issues left behind. The shame was lifted, the false beliefs were rectified, the guilt that said all was her fault was corrected.

Christ showed her areas in her life that needed adjustments, like her attitudes! Her language was cleaned up, her broken heart began to mend. The greatest healing He brought to her was instilling in her heart that she is very much loved. By Him! He was restoring all that the abuse had stolen.

It wasn’t easy and it didn’t happen over night but with Christ beside her, with Christ holding her up with His right hand, and with Christ picking her up and carrying her when she was too devastated to continue the journey, she finally made it!

No more night mares, no more flashbacks or terrifying dreams, no more heart filled with hatred and wanting to hurt those who hurt her. All was replaced with forgiveness and a peace seeped within her that was beyond her own understanding. She was finally free from the devastating issues that had plagued her for much of her life. And the most deep seeded need of all has been filled, she finally realizes and accepts, Suzie is loved!

God the Father through His Son, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit knows your pain and knows your brokenness. Allow Him to walk through the pain with you. Allow Him to restore what the abuse stole from you. Trust Him with your innermost healing and if need be, He’ll even carry you when you can’t seem to take another step forward.


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Look up these scriptures. What do they say to you, right now?

Psalm 3:3

Zephaniah 3:17

John 8:32, 36

Ephesians 4:31,32

Proverbs 14:29

Genesis 28:15

A Secret Angel testimony

A Glimpse into My Journey From Victim to Overcomer

 Secret Angel

A Glimpse into My Journey From Victim to Overcomer

There are many people in this world that are victims of abuse and trying to find secret places to hide from their abusers. These include victims of emotional, verbal, physical, sexual, spiritual, or financial abuse and all have something in common—wounds caused by abuse. These victims seek places where they can feel safe. That place may be hiding somewhere physically or just withdrawn emotionally. It is during these moments of abuse when most cry out to God to protect and to rescue them.  It is also in these physical or mental hiding places, when crying out to God, that we are closest to finding that intimacy with God that gains us entrance into the ultimate hiding place—a secret hiding place in His presence.

God sees everything! He knows every wound, whether physical, emotional, or spiritual, that has been inflicted upon us. He sees these deep wounds hidden in the depths of our souls and spirits, where the human eye cannot see. He hears as victims cry out to Him even though it may be silently with not a word spoken. He knows every thought before it is completed. He knows every heart and desires for every heart to totally turn to Him and accept His Son, Jesus Christ, as our Savior. He desires that invitation from each of us to inhabit our hearts. Though most invite God to visit in times of need, it is in our total brokenness, when nothing in this world matters, that we finally reach out to God in desperation. When we truly ask Him into our hearts, not for visitation, but for habitation, He begins healing and restoration. It is in this brokenness, when we are no longer holding onto things of this world, that God can put back the pieces and crumbs of our broken or crushed lives to remake us. When we finally seek this level of intimacy with God, we can find that ultimate hiding place where God will not only protect and rescue us, but He will bring us to a new level of wholeness in Him. It is that actual place mentioned in Psalm 91 and Matthew 6, NKJV—“the secret place.”

“But you, when you pray, go into your room, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father who is in the secret place, and your Father who sees in secret will reward you openly.” (Matthew 6:6)

“He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.” (Psalm 91:1)

Some may ask how to get to this “place”. It took me years to find it. I was one of these victims of abuse.  For years, I cried out to God secretly for help as I suffered various abuses. I would always turn to Him but then turn away when situations improved. It was not until I was totally crushed that I truly gave my heart to God. Previously, my relationship with Him was very casual. Then, in my desperation, I started seeking more of Him. I desired a deeper relationship with Him. He began revealing more about Himself and the miraculous to me. He became my Protector, like a heavenly Husband, protecting me from abuse. He allowed me to feel some things spiritually—a total peace that was not of this world and also my soul and spirit crying out from the wounds of abuse. He gave me visions and dreams with healing from my past and hope for my future. He spoke to me in miraculous ways. He flew birds directly in front of my vehicle guiding my path as I prayed for guidance.  He showed me that He is in control of everything and allowed me to see, hear, and feel things that are not possible in the natural. He gave me a glimpse into His Kingdom that I could have never imagined when hanging onto my old life. It was in my total brokenness that God was able to remake me to that new level of wholeness. I know that He protects me and guides my path as I have learned to get into that spiritual place of prayer with Him where nothing can harm me, “the secret place of the Most High.” It’s a place available to all who want more than this world can offer.

Dear Lord, draw us into a deeper relationship with You with an intimacy like a new bride. Open our spiritual ears and our spiritual eyes that we can experience Your Kingdom here on earth. We want more of You Lord. We cry out for a miraculous move of Your Spirit to rescue more victims to lead them out of their bondage. Lord, set the captives free and bring healing to the broken… in Jesus’ Mighty Name. Amen.


by Secret Angel of The Abuse Expose’ and Secret Angel Ministry and