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Cold snap or heat wave?

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In this 48th year of mine I have survived sexual abuse, depression, 2 teenage girls simultaneously, 1 ten year old boy on Ritalin, 27 years of marriage, remembering the abuse just 3 years ago, constant therapy (I’ve been IN therapy longer than most of my therapists!) but what I want to know is will I survive menopause?

I’ve been working up to this for a couple of years but it has recently hit hard. Last week I was in our first ladies meeting of the year at church and really enjoying the speaker when suddenly all I could think about was ripping all my clothes off and pouring ice water all over myself! I’ve read about this but never have so clearly experienced it.

Eventually, I had to get up and leave the meeting, a big no-no, especially at small group church functions, but what was I to do? My underwear was wet! I drove home with the windows down, it was about 40 degrees that night and hopped immediately into a cold shower. And I thought men were the only ones who needed cold showers! Whew!

This is something new for someone who has dressed in thermals for years. I’m saving a lot on our heating bill because I’m just not running the furnace during the day. And this is during our recent cold snap and snowy weather – a thoroughly enjoyable experience for me. Who needs a coat when the wind chill is -15? Just step outside and revel in the ultimate comfort zone!

Along with a new appreciation of below zero wind chill factors has come a spurt of mania for me. The years of depression have kept me in bed, on the couch, or in the hospital most of my life. Evidently, my body chemistry is changing completely. There are several cases of manic-depression in my family history and it looks like that is what I am going into. It’s a real switch for me to have this energy level. My psychiatrist (who is younger than me and doesn’t know near as much as I do about anything!) is switching my meds which is helping my constant buzzing around and inability to relax.

You want to see a clean house? After years of contention with my husband over the lack of organization around here (that’s dirt and constant clutter) he is pleased as punch over my new disorder – compulsive cleanitus! I’m talking shining toilets, dishes always done and the dishwasher emptied – a first in my lifetime. Beds are made, laundry finished and PUT AWAY IN DRAWERS THAT ARE NEATLY ORGANIZED, carpets vacuumed daily – sometimes twice when I forget that I already did it earlier, animals cages cleaned, pantry organized, all the crumbs out of the silverware drawer – the list goes on and on! I’ve actually thought about starting a maid service so I can get paid for some of this!

Well, just praise the Lord! He is truly restoring the years of the locust that were stolen from me and my family. He brought me through the depression and revealed the core of it through my memories. If I can survive that I can surely survive menopause! After all, He created this stage of our lives, too so He will provide the means to be in public places without ripping our clothes off! Bless His Holy Name. It really is kinda funny once I get into the cold shower and can think straight again! Meanwhile, my home is clean and my husband is very pleased.

God bless you all, whatever your body temperature. We are survivors!

Written by Sally – Angels by Grace – Feb. 1996

 

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About Sue Cass

I am a follower of Jesus Christ and an abuse survivor. I am the founder & C.E.O. of Elah Ministries, Inc. A non-profit 501c3 ministry that offers hope, healing, and deliverance to hurting souls. Elah Ministries, Inc. is supported strictly by donations and the proceeds from the sale of my seven published books; both fiction and non-fiction. I hope this ministry and my book draws people closer to our Lord Jesus Christ.

9 responses »

  1. I know what you mean about hot flashes, night sweats….
    My therapist mentioned she wanted me to think about medication for depression….Ive been trying natural things like SamE, 5HTP, and now St Johns wart….they have helped…but not completely….But I do not want to have to go the med. route.
    I know her concern is Im entering some real difficult memories…and wants me stable.
    Any thoughts?

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    • Hi Nessa: From what you have said in the past I would suggest you pray about it and see what the Lord says. I think it depends on what med. the Dr. wants to give you. Ask lots of questions about the med. she recommends; side effects, how long will you be on it, etc. Maybe do a little research on it. I’ve had to be on med’s in the past when I went through my healing journey and they definitely helped. They were not long term med’s but got me through the really rough stuff. I continue to pray for you and I hope you’re doing better.

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      • Have you tried, natural things?
        And have they helped?
        Im not sure I get how medication can help, you get through the tough things…doesnt it just numb you?

  2. No I never tried natural stuff. I guess I was just “to far gone.” lol The medication, depending on what it is, just takes the edge off. I had various ones for a while and none made me “numb.” The dosage may have to be adjusted but that’s something you and your Dr. have to discuss. I’m not saying taking med’s and I’m not saying not to. That’s a decision you and your Dr. need to make. I just know the med. prescribed for me at that time helped me survive.

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  4. I didnt know if you have a email I could ask something ….but Ill just go ahead..
    I dont know if its menopause or from abuse? Having difficulty dealing with small issues…thay seem huge…id rather run away or check out ….Ive never been like that..I use to have high stress jobs..deal with any issue

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    • Hi Nessa: My e-mail is: elah501c@bellsouth.net for any personal questions or comments you may have that you don’t want public. You’re welcome to use it any time.
      Have you talked to your Dr. about this? It could be either/or or both. You said you were getting into some deeper issues so that may very well be what’s causing it. I would check with your Dr. about menopause issues and see what he/she says. Your therapist may have some answers also. You’re in my prayers daily.

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      • thanks….Im waiting for insurance coverage the end of the month to see a doctor

      • Good. I’m glad. You poor woman! Menopause and healing? Oh my. My heart goes out to you. That’s enough to make anyone have trouble dealing with even the little things. Hang in there. You’re in my prayers.

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